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Sent to a friend I'm scared that one day my boyfriend will see me for what I really am and leave me. He makes me so happy and says that he loves me, but I find it really hard to accept that anyone could love me for what I am.I suffer with depression and low self-esteem, which makes me feel useless and my last relationship was with a physically and psycologically abusive guy. He lived with me for 15 months and I got used to being treated badly, so now I flinch if my boyfriend raises his voice at me and I constantly apologise if I think I've done anything wrong.
I try to tell him what's wrong, but because he cares so much, he ends up interrupting me to tell me that I'm not fat, or stupid, or useless, which is very sweet, but then I feel like he doesn't really value what I am saying to him.
I hate what I am, and the fact that I feel that I have no control over changing it. I wish I was a better person, because he deserves someone so much better than me.
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- when someone loves u, its because of your essence and not what u project. it is who u are inside.
- Sadly...I could write a Thesis on EVERYTHING you would EVER need to know to defeat this guy, and many men like him that are to follow. But I would be telling you thing's that I am certain that you already know. I would only be detailing everything that your friends and family have already told you
"LEAVE HIM".
You'll get tired of Shit like you are facing with these type of guys and will become interested in men that fall in a different type of Pedigree. In the meantime, at the onset of EVERY "situation" that the two of you have, CALL THE POLICE! Document him...this is the safe way of you gradually dropping this guy. It will also help you to see the TRUTH about him and yourself.
I wish you luck..... - I feel the same way... you're not alone
- Maybe you just need to see that he loves you, because your worth loving, and accepting that love your boyfriend will be able to love you more, and he wont hurt anymore.
Hes not cutting you off, shes trying to get you to stop telling yourself how your not worth anything. Try starting telling him, you need to tell him something, not to interrupt, and then start the story with, "I used to be with an abusive..", that way he will listen. If you start off with your fat, he might think your just insecure and will try to make you feel better.
If you werent worth anything, he wouldnt be with you, and he definitely wouldnt love you. You have to be worth loving in order to be loved.
