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Sent to a friend i sometimes want to commit suicide, and i dont know why. i have a great life, generally had everything handed to me, lots of friends, loving family, and yet it's not good enough. i mean, it's wonderful, but i am ungrateful. so i tried to help myself. i told my mom to schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist for me, but she never did. i told her that i needed it and did not want to tell her why, and she said she would, but she never did. i was afraid i might do something rash, so i went to my school counselor. to anyone reading this, they don't help you. i told her how i was feeling, hoping she would help me. she said "well, i'm going to have to call your mom." my mom has a stressful job, plus she raises three kids and does not need any more stress in her life. she made my mom come in and told her exactly what i had been trying to hide. she told my mom she needed to get help for me. my mom never did. i gave myself therapy, and i'm fine, really. but sometimes, i still think about it. five months later, my mom asks me if i'm still feeling suicidal. she cares, i know she cares. but she'd rather pretend thsi isn't happening. she didnt even say the word, she said "are you still feeling the way you said you were feeling a couple months ago?"a week or so after the conversation in the counselors office, i got in a small fight with my dad which soon turned into more, and my dad said to me "you think you're suicidal? how do you think you make the rest of us feel?"
i'm sorry.
Rating:5.00
Comments
- wow.
- it's not your fault...and he shouldn't put that on you
- that doesnt make any sense at all. i work 7 days a week and i am underage trying to work my ass off for everythig i have, you got lucky
