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Sent to a friend I got pregnant once when I was 18, still living with my mom. I didn't tell her. It only lasted 2 months, I know for a fact because I conceived when I was on the pill (I guess I'm really fertile), so why would I miscarry if I got pregnant and the odds were against me? I broke my baby's heart...I simply told my baby, "You don't want to come into this world, I can't even take care of myself. How could I take care of you? I'm still a kid too. You would be a burden to me, to my family and to everyone you will come in contact with and it will be evident. I would love to meet you, but these circumstances suck. I love you baby. I'm just not ready." In the time I was pregnant, my baby occupied my thoughts all the time, but I was sad and I think it knew that. I even did out of instinct I think, rubbed where I knew my baby was. About a month and a half later, after my missed scheduled cycle, I had an extremely heavy one. After the miscarriage I started taking antidepressants, and I think did not get to grieve as I should have, sadly I am now. I got pregnant back in late March, early April 06. I feel awful. I've been crying off and on all day. I thought about it, and I realized that I broke my baby's heart, an child that should have had a tremendous will to live, that suddenly lost it's will to live. That seems so wrong. I must be a horrible person.Rating:0.00
