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Sent to a friend[12660] Already Asked, Already Told
I'm a bi-curious 23/m. Shortly after breaking up with my live-in girlfriend last summer, I told my straight best friend that I sometimes fantasized about him when I used an oversized dildo in the shower. He said that he was flattered, but entirely too straight to consider doing anything with me.The ex knew about this dildo, and was insulted that I always snuck off to use it on myself, because even though she knew I still thought it was shameful. I also apparently forgot to tell her about my crush on the friend, but that wasn't intentional.
This friend is a rather well-hung nudist who is in the military. Both my ex and I have seen him naked. He had a bad experience with "don't ask, don't tell" with a gay officer a while back, so my thoughts of him will much more likely than not remain firmly rooted in the realm of fantasy. They discussed the matter of my crush on him in mutual confidence one night, and both "slipped" and told me about their conversation within a week of each other, to which I replied that the other had already told me and they laughed.
Both of them think I should bring a man home to see if it's more than just an infatuation, and I agree. But there are three problems with this:
1. I am terminally shy.
2. I've never met a gay man in a bar who didn't seem superficial, and I'm not exactly in the best shape of my life.
3. Even if I could get past 1 and 2, this theoretical man would have to be hung like a porn star for me to get off.
I feel like I've worked myself into a hopeless situation. Can anyone offer me some sound advice?
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Comments
- just fuck me
- This, i'm sure is a very hard situation to deal with. I think you should just relax and go with the flow. I think if you go "chasing" you may create a worse experience than if you just take your time and do what feels right. There is nothing wrong with being curious nor being fully bi/gay. Like I said, just take it slow and don't try and "push" the subject, per se.
- Just be yourself and get out there to have fun with no expectations. Something will click.
- obviously, you want to experiment with gay sex. instead of beating yourself up, start going to gay bars. sooner or later you will hook up. then you will know for sure one way or the other.
