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Sent to a friend I'm in love with a man I recognised the moment I saw him ten years ago. Despite the many defences I placed around myself, he casually looked past them and saw me as if it was the most natural thing in the world. And if I was wiser then, if I knew what I know now, I would have done something about it. But now he's married, and has a beautiful child. And I've been with him his best friend of 20 years, for almost 9 years. I love him now, and know that I should have loved him then, when it was possible. But now it can't ever be. And now he's leaving. And now I have to forget that I can never have the one person in the world who sees me. We've never said the words, but I can't deny it. Maybe it's best that he's leaving. Even though I don't know how to be in this city without him. I don't have to see him, but knowing he's here makes it feel like home. When I'm with him, I feel like I'm home. How can I forget? How can I go on and pretend like this doesn't exist? No-one knows but me. But it's getting too heavy to carry. I'm afraid I may do something stupid. I just have to hold on until he's gone.Rating:0.00
