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Sent to a friend My ex-girlfriend gave me herpes. She was also the second best thing that ever happened to me. That is, until i realized how crazy she was. We broke up since then and i got a new girlfriend who was the best thing that ever happened to me. I didn't tell her about the herpes. She lives far away and we have had one of those infamous 'long distance relationships'. I was sure it would work thought becuase i loved her so much. My ex coerced me into sex however. I ended up cheating on my girlfriend 3(?) times. After that i told her it couldnt happen anymore, i loved my new girlfriend way too much. Recently my ex hung out with one of my best friends (i guess to get back at me) and secretly got my current girlfriend's number out of his phone. She called her and told her all about the herpes and the cheating. She called me at work and after the worst morning of my life she broke up with me which then led into the worst afternoon of my life. I left work early and have been either drunk or fucked up on drugs ever since. It has been almost a week. She also happened to go on summer holiday on the other side of the Earth. My phone calls do not reach her over there and i have not spoken to her since she left despite the fact that i call her daily. i just want to tell her i love her but i know she hates me because i didnt tell her about the herpes. I need more drugs. I have started snorting heroin. I am almost positive that without the drugs and alcohol i would kill myself. I legit love her with all my heart. I am so depressed. I wish i could just hear her voice. I know she hates me and is probably with other men but i dont care i still love her. It is enough to make me want to die. It hurts so bad on the inside i wish i had never met my exgirlfriend. i would have had no trouble staying faithful then. I do not even hang out with my best friends anymore becuase i am too fucked up to do anything anymore and i dont want to see anyone but her. I am so sorry i put you through this baby. I want only the best for you, you wont have to deal with my awful, disloyal untrustworthy self anymore.<3 B
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