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Sent to a friend I am in so much pain right now. The pain meds arent working as they used to. I hurt all the time these days. I am so tired but cant sleep. Im usually in a kind of haze.I wish God would let me kill myself and let me into heaven. Honestly- the fear of hell is all thats keeping me here.
I keep asking myself if todays the day i will choose to end my life. I just want to fall asleep and not wake up to another day of this agony. I have prayed- God why do you not answer? Even if the answer is no, why are you so quiet?
Tiffany I am sorry I left you like I did. I was scared, I didnt want to accept your health problems and risk loosing you. Looks like I lost you anyways. Im glad your feeling better. I wish you a long and healthy life. I hope you find someone who will love and respect you. Someone who will be there for you in the hard times.
Carrie I forgive you. I know the time I was away was hard to deal with. Dont be sad. You were right. We wernt meant to be together.
Angela Im sorry things didnt work out. I was not a good match for you. You needed someone who would honor you and respect you. I did neither.
I know there are others out there whom I have hurt. I am not a good person. I have sinned and fallen short so many times I cant count. I do not justify my actions. I was wrong.
Nothing I can do will help heal what I have done or who I have hurt. Perhaps this physical pain I feel is karma catching up with me. I think I have paid enough into karma now though to be given a break from the pain.
God- hear me. Let me die tonight.
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- My child I love you, and I would never leave you. What I say is true, believe in my son Jesus' sacrifice and understand that I will always want to forgive you, and soon I will rescue you from your pain and suffering. I will wipe the tears from your eyes, all you have to do is believe. I love you. Have faith my child
-God
P.S. 1-800-needhim - I know how it feels when the only thing holding you back is Hell...
hang in there...there is always a reason why you're still here.
I'm praying for you... - Amen to that <3
- actually that's 1-888-needhim...
- no ones going to hell for suicide you morons,
but life can take unexpected turns, even when it feels like its all going to shit, thats where theres hope. - I think there is a country song called....If your going through hell keep on going....dont slip now omg its showing....we'll help you up don't trip on the needles, keep them growing
