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Sent to a friend I'm a big burly guy 6ft 300 lbs, half muscle half fat. buthere's the thing I'm married, but I like gay sex. I used to think I was gay, but I don't think so. I just like the sex act. I love my wife dearly, but think about dominating a fem male, and once in a while being fucked myself. I'm not a thug or anything like that but with my size rather intimidating. I got saved and It's been over a year since I've had sex with a man. I want to do it , but I think I need my wife more. I love women more than men, I don't walk around looking at guys, but I do have a problem with porn. I think my addiction is ruining my life. Why is life so complicated. I get turned on by flirting with guys online. i lead them on , get them to send me pics and talk about meeting, then I stop emailin them. My wife and I are about to have a baby and I'll never be able to have male-male sex again. Well I got saved and I can't do it again, my mind knows this but my body wants too. Im not going to, but I hate myself , because I want to. Is it society that makes me hate myself, or do I just hate myself. Death is the only thing that will bring peace. Why am I a big masculine fag. My paranoia makes me think everybody knows already. I can't sleep it.
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Comments
- I think you're gay. And I think society is what's making you feel forced into living the "straight life" life. That's why you're tormented. You love your wife, but you're gay, so you'll never be truly happy denying who you really are. The cheating, though, is wrong..whether with a male or female. I'm glad you're saved....God loves you and you'll still be saved even if you "come out of the closet." Don't let anyone make you think that God won't love you if you admit and accept being gay.
- That should read, "striaght life" LIE, not life.
- Its called living on the "down low". many men do it. they live very normal lives and have happy wives and children. Have safe sex and do your thing.
Many, many men do it .
