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[24678] I Feel Like A Prisoner In My Marriage

I feel like a prisoner in my marriage. I just celebrated my 5th wedding anniversary and more and more I am realizing how much I can't stand my husband. We were friends when we had gotten married...I thought it would turn to more but it hasn't. I am not in love with him. I guess I love him out of respect and because he is the father of my child. I just feel like my life is going absolutely nowhere...I try so hard to make it work and he's verbally abusive and just acts like a controlling ass and child most of the time. It is getting worse instead of better. Our sex life sucks...he's selfish! I am afraid to leave him because I am afraid he'll take my child away just to be spiteful. I love someone else, who I completely jive with..we have been close friends for a decade. It pains me that I cannot have him. My husband doesn't support anything I do...he just likes to yell constantly and it is affecting our child. I don't know how much longer I can keep wasting my life and keep pretending that I want to be here. I try so hard, but more and more it seems as though one day it is just going to fall apart. But when? i wish he could be different, but I just see him getting worse. I actually hate him most of the time...I hate being controlled...I hate sacrificing my life... I hate what this does to our child and what kind of lasting effects will it have on her. It is sad. Sometimes, I think I was asleep when I agreed to get married to him. I wanted to call the wedding off a couple weeks before...I should have, but I was in my early 30's...I wanted a husband and a family. Turns out that marriage is overrated. I feel used by him...he doesn't kill himself at work, he doesn't care about my dreams...we are so not on the same page...I feel completely dead inside. Help!!!!

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