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Sent to a friend I can't fucking breathe. My life is suffocating with hate and lonliness. There is no one for me to love in this empty 1 bedroom. I left california to move closer to my mother and my sister who couldn't be further apart from one another under the same state. I've gone through two jobs, now unemployed, and had 2 bad fucking dates.My computer busted now I have a cheapo. one might ask what is there left for me. I have a dream to create a book...that dream is fading. It seems that my spirit and my heart is crying out for companionship and Its distracting that dream.
With all of my pride and after everything I have owned in life now I have nothing. My only lifeguard is lto find love and I just cant find anyone.
My mother who I can call doesnt cut it. I am a grown man that cant stop fucking crying nightly. The world is in hell and men are at war and here I am feeling selfish, that I feel this way.
I am broken
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- why are you bitching? Get friends
- Yes, I know how you feel. The world does seem to be a mad, terrible place at times. I too feel the pressure and the uncertainy. What really makes me crazy is I try to be a good person but then I end up hurting other people-- people I was originally trying to help. I think it has something to do with not really wanting anybody in my life because I don't want the responsibility. I don't know everything, and I get very frightened when someone shows an interest in me. Love? I've had it many times, but then I always lose it. I think our society as a whole is so hooked on the 'more and more' principle that we have lost ourselves. No one knows what they really want anymore.
- I can honestly understand how you feel. I hope and pray that God will enter you life to show you your purpose cause everyone has one. You are never alone cause he is there for you always. Just call on him and he will come to you. You are loved with an everlasting love. Just know that.
- no one is ever broken. you can get through it. have faith
- don't give up. you aren't the only one that cannot breathe.
- Dude, you need to take it easy... despite I have love in my life, sometimes I feel so miserable and unhappy 'cause I've been very jelous and insecure person... and I'm so scare to be left alone because of this... But just yesterday I made the commitment of changing that... there's nothing impossible, whatever you want you can do. Remember you are responsible for your self and if you wanna be happy look inside of you, try not to condition your happiness to the people around you... do some soul searching and seek God. I hope you find the strenght to go on and change all that negativity and those sad feelings.
You need to let go of this hate, and maybe look for some support group depending on the type of issues you have.
God bless you. - Go get a puppy. Paint a picture. Do something different that will take ur mind off of all of this!
- No nan or women will ever be able to totally satisfy your need for love. They maybe able to quench the need for a bit, but there will always be an underlying need for love...love of self, and accepting who you are, despite what you consider inaquacies. Also receiving Jesus as your savoir, is ultimatre your saving grace...He can fill you up with an unconditionally love, beyound your dreams, he can give you the strength...to go on.
I have felt te same way you have, it lasred a year)after a divorce...we were together 25 years), anyway I stuggled each day and night with thoughts of death...I just wanted to die. I reached out for what my soul neede and ached for...God save me was my desire, and He picked me up...of course I needed to seek him , also...life isn't easy, and we all need our souls to be comforted...and I beleive jesus really is the answer!!!
Find a church, but also be careful not to get invlved with a church that radicules. I will pray for you to find God...I used to lay in bed at night and imagine God's arms embracing me,comfort and strength came. Now I know when I feel lonely to ask for His help...save me, save the wrench that I am, for I have sinned against you , and as your created chid need your rescuing grace...that is also what I shall pray for you...God's blessing upon you - I love you. Try prozac, it sounds like you're depressed. Prozac works. Prayer works, ask god to help you find love. He will
- I feel the same way.
- There is nothing in your life that you mentioned that would prevent you from writing your book, other than loss of motivation. Even a 20 year old computer is good enough for word processing. Many of the greatest works of literature were inspired by depression. Use whatever insight you get from your current situation and force yourself to put it into writing every day. Once you feel better, you won't write as well.
- Bloody hell mate your surly an example of the materialistic society you live in. You don't need a job or possessions to be happy nor will people make you thus. You need to find a better purpose and perhaps some counselling
- I do understand! Personal grief touches deepest, might be war there and people falling like flies but does not mean sitting here suffocating with hate and loneliness nobody should not show u some symphathy! Life is hard... but never gave up hope!!
