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Sent to a friend I'm afraid that no one will have the same feelings that I could for them. I've been working hard toward making a better life than the one I grew up in but to the detriment of a social life. I'm going off to a really great graduate school and now that I have some free time in between I've been trying to cultivate a relationship with a lady friend. Her brother lives near where I'll be (35 miles) and I've told her this idea. I don't think she'll go for it. Although she claims to have some feeling for me, I'm not sure if I totally believe her. I'm pretty sure I caught my best friend covering for her while she was seeing someone else. I don't think I deserve this. I'm a generous guy, generally pleasant (except when I'm focused on working), and I'm not ugly (I've been told I've got a great smile but in need of a tan [I work in a room w/o windows]). Maybe it's because I don't treat sex as casually as she does. We've slept together one time months ago and she decided to cut it off at the head when she realized that it meant more to me than to her. I may have little experience with this but because I wait until I find someone special. This is another iteration of the same story. The hardest part is that I know things could have been different if I hadn't worked so hard. That's a sad thing to say, to trade in a secure future for a shaky now but I have nothing to show for my hard work yet except more schooling. Why am I not the great catch that everyone else tells me that I am? I'll probably cry tonight now that I've gotten all of this out. I hope I'm not as emotionally crippled as I think that I probably am.Rating:0.00
