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Sent to a friend im soo fucking depressed inside, i mean the friends i have now are great, and life is alot better than is used to be, but everyone thinks everything is better now... its not. no one is there when im alone in my room or driving alone in my car, i have thoughts all of a sudden of slitting my wrist or even when im driving i have a thought of all of a sudden stopping in the middle of moving cars just to see if i will die... life really does suck. and why cant i be with the one who loves me? why cant i get over the fact that i love him and that if my friends dont like hima nd if he isnt the cutest guy ever, shy should i let that get in the way? i hate everything that revolves around me. and i hate my parents too... the only ONLY only person in this world that i love is my sister and i had a dream the other night that she died. it was absolutely horrible. people can never really truly know a person. not truly. you can not truly know something that you havent experienced recently or are experiencing. like rape. people think they know what it feels like but they dont. not unless you have actually been raped. or severe depression. i have cuts and burns all over my body. so what. yea there are a surprising amount of people out there who have been raped and who cut, but you dont realize it, and then you get even more depressed when you think you are just making a big deal about something that isnt a big deal. and everyone in the entire world is handling it better than you are, so you feel like a weak ass bitch who cant do shit right. i am someone who would do anything for my fiends. i have done everything for my friends and i only get used. i cant say no to anything. if it makes someone else happy, ill do it. i feel like i have to do it. and it has screwed me over more than you know. more tha most people can imagine... i dont knwo what to do with my life jsut yet, but i want to straighten out, and i dont know how long that will take or if i will even live to see the day that it happens before someone rapes me for like the 5th time or i just commit suicide, idk... but i do hope i see the day... one day... it will all be betterRating:5.00
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- I have been severly depressed before and have done things to make others happy. But it can all change. First find something new to do. Doesn't matter what it is, just something new. Start to work out, learn to play a game, join a club or anything. Even if you think its not you try it. You don't know the real you who is happy and self sufficient. When you do something new you meet new people. When you do you will meet new friends.
Stop calling people who are using "friends" If you use the right names then you can clarify your thoughts about them. Call them users call them acquaintances. They are not friends.
- life doesnt suck...you suck...get your head on straight and learn to stick to your convictions...You know what is wrong in your life...so fix it...and dont bother with the "I dont know what to do" BS excuse...set your mind to it and do it...period...stop sucking.
- when i read this, i felt like my thoughts were coming out on the page.
someone else does know how you feel, i promise you. - call on god and he will save you
- I'm really sorry that you are so depressed. Please don'harm yourself. I,ve been there where I've wanted to take my own life. Thats all I thought about. Then one day I asked God to help me. It took a lot of time to trust Him, I still wanted to die. Know 20 years later I feel blessed someone shared how Jesus loves me and will forgive me, no matter how many times I mess up. Remember God made you, and wants a relationship with you. Ask him today into your life. My prayer is for you to trust Him. God bless
- Please don't hurt yourself. hiredpun@gmail.com I was deeply touched by your candor and sinccerity.
- i love you. :)
- you're a stronger person than you think! you're still here because there's a reason. no matter how hard it gets know that there are people out there who understand.
