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Sent to a friend I am a 16 year old girl. I have had and lost my first love. His name was Matt. He dumped me nearly 8 months ago.When we were going out I kissed another guy, 2 months into the relationship. At the end of it he
dumped me because he fell in love with my ex friend. Except now he tells me she was a mistake and how he wishes he never left me. He plays mind games and fools me into alot of shit. And yet I still love him.
I have had 5 boyfriends since him, all of which did not last 3 weeks. He has cheated on his new girlfriend 4 times, with me. I have cheated on 2 of my ex boyfriends, because of him. We only met up last Sunday and he made me so happy again, I've missed him so much. I never stop thinking about him and I wish he was mine again. Every time I want to cry I think about him and what we had... I have never missed anyone as much. I have never loved anyone as much.
It's been nearly 8 lonely months and they have been painful. I know that it takes a while to get over it, but I wish it would just stop now. Have you ever met a person that could control you? Control your every heart beat, your every thought, your every move? Well if you haven't, i suggest you don't...
I wish I could stop loving him.. I wish I could move on... It doesn't hurt when I see them together at school... I just wish it was me he was holding... I've talked to him about it and yeah, he says im prettier, he says I made him happier... He even told me he thinks she's f**ked in the head... He's one of those people who are scared to be alone...
He's leaving school at the end of the year and says he would leave her... Possibly come back to me... Every time I think of him saying those words to me I cry... It makes me so happy... I don't know whether he means them or not... He always seems to have no emotion will talking to me via MSN or TEXT, but when we are alone together it's like we're girlfriend and boyfriend again...
I would do anything for this boy... It's hard to believe and I wish it weren't true... But I would... We would get back together at school but it's just all too complicating... And I agree with him... I just wish I would get over him, stop loving him... But I can't... It's like I'm trapped
And the worst thing is, is that no-one knows... No-one but him... And even then, he always asks if I still like him etc... I have to carry this burden alone, I fake a smile every day and try not to cry every time I see him... It hurts like hell
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Comments
- I hope you find real love..^^
- He's so good at playing games. He'll probably tell your ex-friend or whoever else he's going out with the same thing, which is, "you're way prettier than her, and I think she's fucked up in her head".
If he keeps asking you whether you still like him or not, then that only proves he likes the attention and the affection from you. He hates being alone so he wants to keep his options open, just in case if the next relationship fails he can come back to you again, if only just for purposes regarding ex. I don't mean to offend you or anything, but people like him are using girls like you as a booty call. He'll be sweet and charming to you whenever he's alone with you because he hates being al one, and because he's a guy, the sex is always enjoyable. Playing games with your mind is just one way for him to step away from sexual frustration and use you as a maturbatory tool.
Wake up, you're better than this. Stop being tricked and duped by his tactics. - He's using you. It's horrible, cause you seem like a nice person. But listen, this guy is no good. He keeps you on the side, so he always has a back-up.
My recommendation is to leave that guy alone. .....He wants the one he can't have..... But when he gets it he's no longer intersted. He's toying with you soo badly. You don't want to be with someone like that. IN ADDITION, he's undoubtedly talking smack about you behind your back.
typical guy assh***.
