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Sent to a friend I pledged myself not to look at porn again. But something triggered me, an advertisement that led me again to practice the disgusting act. So I followed this ad and soon, I found myself watching a video and masturbating in front of it. It was a little heaven for me. My pains were set away when I do this act. But soon I was done, and drained my energy, I went back to my sensesI really want to stop myself. There was a time where I feel that I was really resistant from all of these dirty images. I felt that my conscience was always at my side. I felt strong. But this time, whenever I feel alone, it seems I needed something to release all the stresses that I feel. After I did the act, it seems that I am very guilty wasting my time on such stupid thing. I quickly pretend that it was another person who clicked and typed those obscene words to search for dirty pleasure. I blamed the devil. I always deny that it was my true self who did this loser\'s act. With watching porn and masturbating, I actually cheated no one, but myself. \"Now I am a new person.\" O how many times did I say that to myself. It seems that I am trapped in an unending vicious cycle of sinning and confessing. I am obliged with so many duties, but this online fake sex is getting on my way. I wanted to learn more of self-control. I hope sharing this confession to millions of readers in the whole world, help me to grow and walk away from the darkness that I had set myself into. Now, I hope doing this blog would help me engrave this to my mind: That I am in control of my actions and I should take responsibility of whatever wrongdoings I have done. Also, I should be watchful of whatever lustful thoughts that come to my mind. I have the power to shut it and not let it come back again. Satisfying my lust will will lead me in a tremendously huge wasteful amount of time. With my perseverance and purity, I will definitely obtain authentic happiness which I could share with my future wife. I can assure myself that it will last forever. Yes I will exhaust myself to forget all of the guilt that eats my heart. Yes, I can do it, with the help of my Savior and with the good folks around me. Pledging to write exhaustively after a lustful act should strengthen me to keep myself from stumble in front of an attractive naked lady, alluring myself to waste my time and money. I have been tripped, but now, I stand up and continue the journey. Once I have fallen again into a trap, I will just simply blame myself and fall into a deep depression. I just realized that these are just times where I am tested. My Creator still loves me and I am worthy of being part of His kingdom if I love Him and His creation. Focusing myself for the better of my and everyone else\'s lives is indeed a selfless act that will please Him. I know that during the course of my journey in life, I might trip again. But with every fall, there is still someone who raises me up. By sticking to my faith, I will be stronger.Rating:3.63
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- This is an awesome confession and exactly what I needed. I appreciate your sharing and being so honest. You didn't share your name but I will pray for you and for God to strengthen you. I will see you in Heaven.
- You realize masturbation is perfectly healthy, and reduces your chances of prostate cancer, right?
- ive got that same problem too i just cant help my self !!!
- Don't be so hard on yourself. There are plenty of worse things you could be doing with your time. Many people look down on masturbating, but it's a lot better than going out and hooking up with random people for one night stands. I personally don't think there's anything wrong with masturbating in the privacy of your own home but if you really feel guilty about doing it, than keep trying to quit. If you mess up and rub one off, don't beat yourself up over it. After all, you're only human.
- a very true confession
- Go wank I say! you wouldnt have one if you were not meant to tickle it sometimes!
- Who cares if its disgusting. It feels fucking good. Its not disgusting anyway! Just do it. Nothing wrong with it.
- I know exactly how you feel, however, to overcome this I turned to the one who can deliver, which you said tou did. The thing is, the forceful desire to look at porn is not entirelly your fault. We have to remember the that, (believe it or not) this is one of Satan's weponds and it is a spiritual battel you are in. The Bible teaches us to 'resist the Devil and he will flee from you'. How do we do that? simple, with the only wepond that can defeat Satan, the name of Jesus. Command him and his evil spirit of lust in the name of Jesus to go and he WILL leave. You will feel a sudden release from that forceful desire, however keep in mind the Devil will not stop attacking you until your time has come to leave this world. Keep in mind that the Holy Spirit was sent to guide you into all truth, listen to him. I know you want to please God so please listen to him. Let me leave you with a few words from Paul, 'Finally my brother be strong in the lord and the power of his might'. May the hand of our Lord and Saviour keep you from danger. Bye.
- You need to keep praying. God hears you and will act in his time to stop you. But yoyu need to keep rying. WHen your not so confused. try saying out loud how superficial it is. how stupid the girl was to let people people do these things to her. how can she let them exploit hwer. If you say this out loud enough times, then conpassion will start taking over and you will be able to stop watching porn. If not sell yyour computer. it is better to be happy than to sucumb to habits that you don't want.
- weirdo! :S
- hey honey dont sweat it. we all get off to porn or images in our imnaginatio. its human nature to do so.just do what makes ya happy hun
- You realise of course that according to your faith, He made people, including their dicks and pussies and bums and boobs right? And if He loves you he wouldnt put thoughts in your brain that would make you do things He didnt want you to do right? Finding people fucking arousing is totally natural dont get all stressed about it. Seriously.
- Oh one other thing, relax, grow out of the religious stuff if its freaking you out, start going out and meeting women, and get a hot girl. Nothing cheers me up than me and my mrs gettig it AWN, yanawatamsayin? Yeah you do.
- It's easier to lose the guilt than to give up jerking off. Chill out and enjoy yourself.
- I hear you and am in the same boat myself...it's hard as a christian to resist the temptation because while we must learn to turn and run to God our vices seem to run toward us...i share your pain though and pray each night for forgiveness but it seems in vain sometimes...stay strong, though, my friend...stay strong and look towards the great teacher and He will guide you.
- It's okay to watch porn and masterbate - it's natural and okay! Cheating on your future wife is not.
- dude, it's masturbation. not like, raping children or something. everyone does it, whether they want to admit it or not. I'm a girl and I'm admitting to it right now. Just because you masturbate doesn't mean you're going to hell. and porn... it's everywhere, no avoiding it. whatever though, you sound like a strong guy, so best of luck.
- Thank God for your relationship with Christ. You are not alone, He said He will never leave you or forsake you. Trust in Him. God Bless you.
- no, no you are screwed. doomed to repeat. Better geta big jar of lotion you are still young. Good story though.
- dood, since when is masturbating a bad thing? allow me to illustrate the following benefits:
1) its 100% safe
2) no one but YOU can please you as good as you (well i havent found her)
3) its your dirty little secret
4) its FREE!
5) is quite normal (99.99% of men do it. those who dont, dont know how)
6) you are not hurting anyone
7) did i mention its free?
look. i could go on and on and on. god gave you a penis that just happens to feel good when you touch it. god designed it, so use it.
cheers, johnnytheprick - i wank daily, and feel no remorse nor regret. the only sinful aspect of masturbation is, in your case, the guilt that follows it. enjoy yourself mate, there's nothing wrong with it.
- Prayers in your struggle.
- All is forgiven.........By ma anyway
- Great thinking man. Right now im recovering from the very same thing. I was in that realm of sin and I have put my focus on God now. Through him all things are possile. He has given me such a wounderful girl that to me to look at those images is "adultery" against her, and both her her and I being religious only want whats pure. Sure i admit there are those urges when you are alone and stressed, but you have to fight it. Draw, listen to music, or chat with a buddy...hell or even read a book...lol. Good luck with your path in faith, I love mine and you learn and feel more "pleasue" than you ever had with that sin. God Bless
- You're not going to go to hell for it - don't worry :)
- There is nothing wrong with looking at porn and masturbating - what are you on about? Oh and I'm a girl. Lots of women look at porn too you know - its quite normal and natural for some people. Chill out about it for goodness sake.
- Well its a perfectly natural thing to do don't feel guilty
- wow... everyone masturbates. EVERYONE. its natural, if you dont youll have a wet dream anyway. and porn helps release the evil inside your nutsack. and stop humping bibles
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- porns fun ease up and enjoy it dude
- dude, masturbation is healthy and completely normal. don't be ashamed of it. Enjoy it to the fullest. I do it all the time and I have the most beautiful girlfriend in the world. God isn't the bible man; God is the one who loves you; and God would like you to be healthy and live a long and happy life. So do what you enjoy, don't listen to the lies of man; because thats what the bible is; God is in your heart not in your book.
- okayyy waaaayyyyy too long
- dont worry its all apart of life its normal and i dont see why you shud stop anyway its good for you lol.
- just do it
- IT'S NOT THAT BAD.
- chill out dude
- its just sex, if God wanted u to feel guilty about it i dont think he woulda made part of life
- listen friend.... watching porn and masturbating has nothing to do with God. In fact there is no religion that forbids it. Some psychologists even suggest masturbation as a way to regulate your brain chemicals if you are someone who doesn't have a way to be having sex. Of course with everyihing... moderation is the key.. even praying in excess will be bad... think about it.
- So true, so true.
- i too am there let us pray together so are sins may be forgiven lord im am like this man and he is like me we both sin because we are weak please give us the will to prevail thru this sinnfull act lord give us the will to do what is in our hearts and not in our heads thank you lord may we never have to ask for forgiveness about this again in your name amen
- I think you need to relax my friend and stop punishing yourself - it's only wanking for Christ's sake! Just enjoy the damn porn! I hate religion - it's all guilt, guilt, guilt - and for what? Nothing! My advice to you buddy - read Richard Dawkins 'The God Delusion', and carry on masturbating without punishing yourself for a totally natural act - remember, you're male, you have a biological imperative to find women arousing, it's hardwired into your genes man!
B. - 1) Blimey! You had a wank, now it's over. Is that such a big deal? Don't pay though, lots of free porn out there.
2) The judeo-christian tradition has been hitherto successful because it provides a viable ideology for more-or-less autonomous regulation of human sexual reproduction. Some aspects of the ideology--chastity before lifelong publicly committed monogamy--are obviously extremely relevant to human biology in the light of modern scientific knowledge; others less so, which includes the sin of Onan. It's certainly true that a man has a limited capacity for orgasms/day, and semen volume diminishes successively. If you're in a relationship and masturbating on the side you may be denying someone their rightful gift. If not, my view would be it's as well to check the clockwork's in order now and again should that relationship arrive. If you knock one off last thing at night you'll likely sleep better too.
You sound like you're really suffering more on this issue than you ought to. Perhaps you should seek professional advice.
3) I am the devil. Hmm. I mean well here I think, but there are sociological issues around porn not entirely resolved, concerned with exploitation of the participants. But if everyone who makes porn is a consenting adult volunteer and you're an adult who likes to watch porn while masturbating I find it hard to see the harm myself. And you might consider the fact that taboo and criminality are two sides of the same coin. No taboo, no financial gradient to exploit.
4) The buddhists say the absence of suffering is the absence of desire. Unfortunately nature made you a highly sexed killer ape with sexual desires, just like your forefathers before you. It's all going on in the pre-frontal lobes of the cerebral cortex of your brain. Serious meditation can change those bits of your brain. Find a class.
5) Regular masturbation devalues the precious occurrance of male orgasm with a partner. This might be the best argument of the lot in favour of the Christian position you outline. It's certainly true sex with a partner is not the same as masturbation watching porn. If it is, you're not doing it right. On the other hand, watching porn can provide useful pointers that could lead to increased prowess and increased satisfaction all round.
6) Advice is a form of nostalgia, but I offer you these comments in good faith and wish you well in your future sex life. - Everyone does it, should learn not to feel guilty instead of learning how to stop
- Ok there's nothing wrong with masturbation, every man woman and even children do it. As long as your not doing it like 5x's a day or in public it's a natural thing for u to do. stop feelin so guilty about it.
- I'm a 21 year old woman who struggles daily with this. I'm a christian...and i used to make myself so depressed over the fact of masterbating. But then i realized, i guess it could be worse. All i'm doing is playing with myself, i'm not doing drugs or out prostituting. I don't know..i used to feel like you..so upset just thinking of what i've done.
but then i got over it..dont let it get you down. we all do it, even if no one is saying it. I'm a girl, 21, successful, have a relationship and am a leader in the church...and i masterbate. and i'm not ashamed of it at all. - masturbation is a beautiful way of getting to know yourself and releasing tensions. I do not believe there is anything more natural in the world. I hope your guilt subsides....
- You are feeling guilting over the act of masturbation, and over the need for masturbation. both of these will only lead you to more frustration and pain. I am a 50 yr old male and I know about a male's need for stimulation and ejaculation, especially in the teen years and early 20s. Your body is telling you it needs to ejaculate. This is not a matter of your religion, it is your biology. There is nothing you can do about it except pay attention to the need and satisfy it. So go ahead and masturbate, learn to enjoy your body and learn to enjoy it without guilt or shame. You will save yourself years of therapy in the future if you do.
- Idiot. It's natural.
- Sounds like you and I are in the same boat. I hope and pray you succeed at beating this addiction, and I appreciate any prayer that I do likewise.
